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Friday, May 29, 2015

The Tied Man: Unbound by Tabitha McGowan - Sneak Peek

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The Tied Man: Unbound




Lilith returned home an hour later. “Hi there.” She grinned and strode past me, loaded down with carrier bags.
“Um, hi?” I volunteered. “Where have you been?”
“Putting my control freakery to good use,” she called as she headed towards the kitchen. She didn’t sound all that pissed off at me, and I plucked up the courage to follow her so I could apologise. “If I can’t defeat it, I may as well channel it.”
“But seriously, you goin’ to let me in on this nefarious plan of yours any time soon?”
“Yup.” Lilith emerged from behind the kitchen island. “Once I’ve sorted a picnic, you and I, my darling, stroppy Celtic fucker, are going on a date.”
“Oh,” I said, utterly thrown. After my ridiculous outburst the very least I deserved was to be sent to my room without any supper. “Can I ask where?”
“Nope.”  Lilith packed various items from the fridge into a large insulated bag. “It’s a mystery tour.”
Once everything was packed to Lilith’s satisfaction, we left the apartment. Instead of finding her immaculate Triumph Vitesse, Nat’s Jeep was parked at the kerb with its soft top folded down.
            “We’re borrowing it,” Lilith said, by way of explanation. “The poor thing doesn’t know what ‘off-road’ is – it needs a good run. As do we, so hop in.”


We headed out of Santa Marita and followed the coast road for maybe ten miles, until Lilith pulled off the main drag and drove us up to a wrought iron gate partially hidden by an overgrown hedge. She leaned out of her door to enter a code into a keypad, and the gate slid open. “We’re now entering Señor Quinteras’ estate; thirty thousand acres of land, and three miles of private coastline. I did his portrait a couple of years ago, and part of the deal was that I get to come and play here whenever I like. He’s out of the country at the moment, so we’ve got the whole place to ourselves. And right now I’d recommend that you check that your seatbelt’s fastened.” I’d just glanced down to make sure it was when she slammed the little car into first gear and took off straight across the dunes.
I may have actually screamed.
On the road, Lilith was an assured and skilful driver. Off-road, she was an absolute maniac. I counted at least a dozen times when all four wheels left the surface of the planet, and I would have considered asking if we could reverse so I could collect my stomach if I hadn’t been concentrating so hard on breathing. As far as I could see there was no roadway or path to follow but Lilith appeared to know exactly where she was going.
We finally came to a halt on a sand dune that overlooked a secluded bay.
“Jesus. You weren’t a twocker in a previous life, were you?” I gasped.
“A what?”
“Twocker. You know what one is?”
Lilith shook her head.
“Fuck me, don’t tell me I’ve found something you don’t know? Car thief. ‘Take without owner’s consent.’ They have a tendency to drive like nutters without any regard for life, too.”
“Well at least I know there’s a career available for me if I the demand for erotic portraiture dries up.” Lilith applied the handbrake and jumped down from the car as coolly as if we’d just driven to the supermarket. I managed to get out without my legs folding beneath me.
“So now I’ve survived the journey, do I get to know what we’re doing here?” I asked.
“You’re going to learn to swim,” Lilith declared as she pulled her holdall from the back seat.
I made one last attempt to cling on to my rapidly-evaporating foul mood. “I might already know how to swim. Did you consider that?”
“Except you don’t,” Lilith stated. “Because if you knew how to swim, you’d have tried to get across Lake Albermarle within a month of arriving, or drowned in the attempt.”
“Anyway, I haven’t got anything to wear and there’s no fuckin’way I’m going in the sea in the nip.” I watched as Lilith got a carrier out of the holdall. “Ah, bugger it, let me guess. This is where you give me a pair of swimming shorts that are, no doubt, both a perfect fit and a colour that’s a perfect match for my skin tone. Am I right?”
Lilith laughed and threw me one of the carrier bags. “Navy blue. I’ll even shut my eyes whilst you put them on.”
And mate.
I tried to scowl at her, but the impish grin she gave me in return made it harder and harder to sustain. “Bossy posh wee mare,” I muttered, and opened the package.
“Grumpy Irish bastard,” Lilith retorted, and stuck her tongue out at me before turning her back. “Now go on, show your arse to the seagulls and get changed.”
By the time I’d stripped out of my jeans and t-shirt and pulled my shorts on, Lilith had changed into a miniscule black bikini that looked predictably amazing on her bronzed and taut runner’s frame.
“At least I can make I right tit of myself in privacy, I suppose,” I said as we walked towards the water, which was marginally less humiliating than pleading Please don’t make me do this. I can’t deal with finding yet another thing I can’t do.
 “Actually, one of the reasons I decided to bring you swimming is that I think you’ll be good at it.”
“Yeah, sure you did.”
Lilith stepped in front of me. “You have the build, for a start. Wide shoulders, slim waist. Disgustingly decent arm strength for someone who doesn’t exercise.” As she spoke she ran her hands over my body, and her flawless brown skin was stark against my own which, after a life spent in shadows both literal and metaphorical, could best be described as pale blue. Under the bright midday sun, the silver network of scarring on my hands and arms was virtually fluorescent, a horrific map of self-destruction. “And… oh God, I know it has nothing to do with keeping you afloat, but you’re so bloody beautiful. Come here a moment.”
Her eyes were full of a warmth that I really didn’t deserve as she stood on tiptoe to kiss me, delicately at first, with that subtlest of pauses to allow me to give or deny consent. With an unpleasant little stab of guilt I realised that Lilith did that every single time we kissed, or made love, or even held hands; she had never once forced intimacy on me, never assumed I would accept her touch, and had managed it so adroitly that I hardly noticed it was happening. Until now. Everything my counsellor had advised to ensure the development of my ‘personal sexuality’, Lilith had been doing instinctively from the very first moment we’d met.
Lilith waited for me. I leaned in and returned the kiss, long and hard.
 My permission duly given, her nimble tongue parted my lips and gently brushed against my teeth as she entwined her fingers in my hair, and I gave a soft moan of pleasure and pulled her lithe body against mine until my hard-on began to test the limits of my new attire. I was just wondering if there was sufficient space to get horizontal on the back seat of the Jeep when Lilith pulled away with a little sigh of regret.
“Hey, don’t stop on my account,” I said, and Lilith gave me a wicked little smile.
“No more distractions, bad man. We can finish this later, as long as you haven’t drowned.”
“Yeah, you’re fuckin’ hilarious, lady. Does the kiss of life count as a snog if the recipient’s dead?”
 “Trust me, Finn,” she whispered and hugged me close for a few moments more, until I was as brave as I was ever going to be.
“Come on then, let’s get it over with,” I said, and with Lilith at my side I waded out into the sea for the first time in my life.

 TinkNCognito Review-The Tied Man (first book in the series)

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(¸.•´ (¸.•` I wish there were more stars to award than 5. The Tied Man is a very dark, very disturbing book. I cried more than once, and I cursed quite often too. It is brutal sometimes, but the tender moments are so well done that they often broke my heart.

This book truly is dark and twisted, but it is also well-worth the read. It isn't for the faint of heart or those with abuse triggers. There is a light at the end of the tunnel if you can just get that far!




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The Complete 1st chapter of The Tied Man: Unbound (Book 2 & Coming Soon)

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Tuesday, April 14, 2015

Tabitha McGowan and The Tied Man

Author Tabitha McGowan

The Tied Man


Lilith Bresson, an independent, successful young artist, is forced to travel from her home in Spain to the wild borderlands of northern England, to repay her feckless father’s latest debt by painting a portrait of the enigmatic Lady Blaine Albermarle.

On her first night at Albermarle Hall she meets Finn Strachan, Blaine’s ‘companion’, a cultured and hauntingly beautiful young man who seems to have it all. But Lilith has an artist’s eye, and a gift for seeing what lies beneath the skin. She soon discovers that Blaine is more gaoler (jailer) than lover, and if the price is right, depravity has no limits.

As the weeks pass, Lilith finds that she too is drawn into the malign web that her patron has spun, yet against the odds she forges a strong friendship with the damaged, dysfunctional Finn. In a dark, modern twist to an age-old story, Lilith Bresson proves that sometimes it’s the princess who needs to become the rescuer.

Please note that this storyline contains depictions of drug abuse, violence and non-consensual sexual activity.

Excerpt from "The Tied Man"
(Note: A longer, more traditional excerpt may be found from the preview pages through Amazon.)

Lilith's Perspective...

Blaine: "You must be thinking I've gone mad—"

I didn't disagree.

"—I just feel that you should gain a deeper insight into the real philosophy of Albermarle."

I felt the adrenaline begin to tighten the muscles across my chest: I should have guessed that anything that involved my father's endorsement would possess some dark element.

"I operate an exclusive club here on the island, Lilith—one that you're fortunate to experience, and one that could bring you great benefit if you'll allow yourself the freedom."

The light in Blaine's eyes was positively evangelical now and she leaned towards me, one hand resting on my knee to suggest sorority. "I think you're about to find this extremely interesting."

I placed my untouched champagne on the table. "Blaine, I'm tired, confused and more than a little irritated. As I think I made perfectly clear, I don't consider myself to be a guest here. I'm a temporary employee, and perfectly happy to keep it that way." I went to stand. "And I don't play games."

"Then perhaps you should start. You see? There's that anger again. It never quite leaves you, does it? It just stays beneath the surface, driving you ever onward. Though with your past I'm hardly surprised. I'm sure I'd retain a certain fury with the world."

"This isn't a conversation I'm prepared to have right now."

"Lilith darling, I'm on your side here. I think the way you've been treated is appalling, and you have every right to defend yourself." She gave a knowing smile...

"What I want to say is that Albermarle can offer you a greater opportunity for release than most could ever dream. Why don't you come with me? It's for easier to experience than to explain." Blaine stood and reached out her hand to lead me back to the doorway.

No amount of honeyed words could have prepared me for what I saw. My earlier comment about dungeons was no longer funny, because that was exactly what Blaine Albermarle had constructed in the cellars of her warped fairytale home, complete with bare stone walls, a rack holding a selection whips and implements I didn't want to take a guess at, and a colossal bed that dominated the far end of the chamber

A massive black wooden Saint Andrew's cross was bolted to the opposite wall, and from its beautifully polished leather cuffs, forehead pressed to harsh stone and entirely naked, hung Finn."

Before I could run, Blaine stepped between me and the door. In her hand she held a heavy, hand-stitched crop. "Imagine, Lilith. Imagine what it's like to live out any fantasy you've ever had without fear or censure of discovery. He can be whoever you want him to be, and you can do whatever you like to him."

I could say nothing at all, and Blaine took this as permission to continue. "Try it." She pressed the crop into my hand. "You've been a very bad boy, haven't you, Finn? I'm sure Lilith is capable of teaching you an important lesson."

He slowly turned to face me, so his head was forced to one side of the smooth wood. The huge eyes that had sparked with a life beyond this place were dull and dilated. "I'm sorry, I really can't do this," I managed to whisper.

Blaine eased the whip from my clenched fingers. "First time nerves. Don't worry, you'll soon get the technique with those talented hands of yours. Let me show you." She raised the crop and brought it down with all her strength across Finn's exposed shoulders and I knew that this was no consensual role-play...

Lilith: "He doesn't want to be here, Blaine. I could see that the moment I met him. And as for last night…"

Blaine: "Ah, that. If it's any consolation, Finn gave his full consent to be here, and I have the contract to prove it. He may not enjoy everything that's asked of him, but that's the major draw. My clients are those who've grown tired of actors who merely posture their discomfort; I can offer them someone to play with who genuinely doesn't want to play along. Once you've had this experience, there's no going back to 'let's pretend.'"

Review by TinkNCognito

I truly wish there were more stars to give than 5. As the blurb indicates, this is a very dark, very disturbing book and it most definitely is! Read it when you are in a good place emotionally (always remembering it is fiction).

Lilith is a terrific, compassionate character. A bit of a wild child but once she gets to Albermarle Hall, she is rather quickly initiated into a dark, depraved world - one she never fathom existed. But she never loses who she is. She is amazingly strong, and completely non-judgmental when it comes to Finn, our other main character. She bucks the system and Blaine at every turn, which is fun to read. I truly adored her character and was rooting always for her to win.

Finn is a super complicated character. He largely grew up abused and uses drugs and alcohol to dull himself out so he isn't aware of what is always happening to him. But he is taken with Lili from the very beginning. He is a slave to Blaine and she uses him as currency, selling him to the highest bidder for whatever depravity they want to subject him to. But he has a heart of gold. Despite his despair throughout a lot of the book, he doesn't lose hope.

Blaine is the sadistic, mastermind behind the entire thing and the lady over Albermarle hall. She uses people's darkest desires to gain control over them. I truly hated her, which is what makes her such a well written character. Not often you despise a book character so much that you swear at them out loud but I did it more than once.

There are many other wonderfully complex characters. Henry and Gabriel and Nate as well as those in the depraved group but they are each well written, designed to be loved or hated in turn.

I started the book on a business trip and stayed up until all hours and rose early several days because I just couldn't put it down. I cried more than one time and cursed quite often too. As hard as the brutality is a large part of the time, the tender moments are so well done that they often broke my heart.

This is the first book and from what I understand, there will be another. I read a few reviews the complained about the ending but they may not have known there would be another book.

Be warned that this book truly is dark and twisted but well worth the read. It isn't for the faint at heart.

*Favorite Quotes*

"The momentary discomfort was nothing at all compared to the realization that she was finding refuge of my flawed embrace." ~Finn

"I don't expect you to be like them. Don't want you to be. It's that damn I want, it's you. From the moment we met, it's only been you." ~Lilith to Finn

Lilith: "What did you call me?" Finn: "Ah. A chuisle. Gaelic. 'My Darling.' I prefer the proper translation, mind you." Lilith: "Which is?" Finn: He gave the bashful smile. "My pulse."

Lilith: "It was the first time I had ever felt guilt and finding a man attractive."

Lilith: "Even at this ridiculous hour, and clad in a faded blue t-shirt and ancient pyjama pants, he look like something Michelangelo might reject for being too beautiful."

Finn: "In a fortnight Lilith had figured out more about me than anyone had ever cared to know, and I could only hope that she would hold it gently."

The follow up to this wonderful novel is due out later this year – The Tied Man Unbound

From Tabitha McGowan:

"Towards the end of the writing process I realized I couldn't write a simple epilogue to TTM, and I really felt there was a second story with the same protagonists, but a whole new plot. There will be two major locations - Spain, and Dublin - and an introduction to Finn's wider family, and also the horror that is the O'Halloran clan!

I really wanted to let Finn and Lilith grow and heal and discover, and learn to deal with the demons that they both still have.

Ultimately I love writing for both Finn and Lilith, and I wasn't quite ready to let the pair of them go *just* yet!"

Read the first full chapter of The Tied Man Unbound and get additional excerpts and snippets on Tabitha's Tumblr page!! Don't miss any of the news about what she has in store for Finn and Lilith - and watch for a release date later this year...

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About Tabitha McGowan:

"I was born in the north of England, and apart from a brief adventure in west Wales, I’ve lived here all my life; my hobbies therefore include bear-taming, wolf-whispering and wearing sleeveless tops in temperatures of -10 degrees.

I’ve been writing professionally for nearly 20 years, predominantly as a playwright. This gives me my love of strong dialogue; even now, I tend to develop my characters by talking to them. On a good day, they answer back.

The Tied Man is my first full-length novel. I needed to create a world where the female protagonist wasn’t some passive foil just waiting to be ‘completed’ by a good (or bad) man, and I wanted to explore the darkness; after all, some of the very best stories tend to hide there… Find me on Facebook for more whittering and ferret-updates." :D

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